I’ve suspected I’ve had lymphoma for the last year. I told people about it, fearing that I would die unexpectedly. I started fasting to get rid of what I saw were melasma marks from hormone imbalances due to copper poisoning from the Paragard IUD. The lymph nodes didn’t really decrease, as I only fasted for 6 days.

As far as I can count, there are about 20 swollen lymph nodes, four on my neck, one on my collar, one on my left breast, and at least a dozen in my groin, some of them I can’t touch completely or have to squeeze to get to. Sometimes I think they’ve moved, but I’m unsure.

I have been gaining weight despite eating habits for the last year. About 50 pounds. To be fair, I was underweight from the stimulants and stress. I’ve been on and off antibiotics for the last two years because of the mold in my grandma’s house causing me severe allergic reactions.

Today is day 1 of a fast that I’ve been trying to do since May 2018 when I took a video of myself documenting my physical deterioration. I don’t recognize my face in the mirror, and my skin discoloration makes me unsightly. My doctor told me, “It looks like you have vitiligo” because of the bits of my natural light skin peeking out through the darkness.

I half-ass attempted to get this checked but knew the outcome would be this: Either I don’t have it, and I move on, or I have it and I get pushed into all types of therapies and medications that will leave me even worse.

There is one study I read about lymphoma being put into remission after a 3 week fast and a vegan diet. While I don’t support the vegan diet anymore, I do think fasting and fast-mimicking diets are the way to go.

God told me today to fast for 25 days. 25 days. I’m scared. If you ever see this, I just want to let you know that you’re the inspiration for this. I opened up to you that night and you believed in me. I deliberately tested you and you respected me enough to be honest with me. I needed someone to live for, and you have helped me with that.

Thank you for being you and thank you for this. I will do my best.

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