December 1, 2019

What have I learned in 29 years?

1. Life is a Perception of Your Own Reality
2. The Difference Between Medicine and Poison is in the Dosage
3. God Lives Through
4. Ignorance is Bliss
5. Dumb it Down
6. Find a Topic
7. …

What have I learned in 29 years?

That no matter how nihilistic I may feel, no matter how depressed or alone, that I ultimately love life and everything about it. The people I meet are beautiful, and everyday is a walking dream.

I was afraid that life was a dream. I was afraid of being a dreamer. But life is a dream, and I’m lucid.

I love my life and all of the people I’ve met so far, and all of the people I will meet. The damages and scars I will heal, the past I will rewrite and the future I will forge.

I used to be bothered by the fact that I couldn’t and can’t remember everything. That I’m not omniscient. And I thought my goal in life was to become so, that omniscience was part of nirvana, or the ultimate enlightenment.

What have I learned in 29 years?

That we can communicate far beyond words. That words are approximations of feelings and that feelings ultimately dictate me. I can’t function without considering my emotions. I’m not a robot. I’m not logical. I don’t think in absolutes.

The same water I was afraid of touching, the water that I thought I would drown in, I embrace.

What have I learned in 29 years?

That the word ‘learn’ is never past tense.

I’m not wise. I will never be wise.

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